retro

Who knew that in just 45 minutes, I could drive all the way to 1979?

It began with a scent.  I was walking rather purposefully towards the last punnet of blackberries, and I was stopped short by a sudden sweetness in the air.  Elusive.  Familiar.  And then, amidst some tiny box-hedge and scraggy greens, I saw it:  one perfect regal face, in purple velvet.  A stubborn pansy ready to do battle with winter.

I have learned to overlook pansies.  Truth be told, I tend to resent British pansies.  They are so ubiquitous.  They are so long lasting.  The pansies of my childhood bounced their way through March winds, then withered in exhaustion (like me) with the first hint of summer heat.  There was a pansy farm near our house on a pretty old road by a river, and as soon as I was old enough to be trusted to remember that a carpet of pansies was for looking and not walking, I would be sent up and down the narrow dirt paths to pick my favourite colours.  I had forgotten how wonderful pansies smell, and how beautiful they are if you can see past the kitsch.

The next retro-smell was not so pleasing.  All over town, every shop I entered smelled vaguely of wet wool, mouldy books, and mothballs.  Now, it is true that half the building in sight were charity shops, where one might expect a certain je-ne-sais-quois of mothball.  But I didn’t go into the charity shops — tempted neither by the caramel coloured leather jacket, nor the glossy book on Cliff Richard.  No.  I was in the department store and the post office and the book shop, and even (briefly) in McKays.  All had the same smell and seemed essentially unchanged for decades.

My tour of 1979 reached its zenith in the cafe:  a vegetarian restaurant that I felt duty bound to support, but which offered nothing more exciting than a cheese and onion toasty.  Or so I thought.  I sat there, sipping weak tea and admiring the bold combination of micro-floral, mint-green, maxi-skirt and lavender striped sweater at the next table.  I listened to a slightly surreal conversation about how much cheese is the right amount of cheese in a cheese scone.  Then, my plate arrived.  Beside the toasty was a small salad: ice-berg lettuce, carrot shreds and green pepper.  Then I saw it, poking out from under a leaf:  a radish, perfectly quartered so that the bright red would not offend.

The waitress looked at me conspiratorially.  In a breathy voice that suggested we might try something illicit, she said, ‘shall I bring you some salad cream for that?’.
My joy was complete.

speak again

Lear:  … Now, our joy,
although the last, not least…
what can you say to draw a third
more opulent than your sisters.

Cordelia: Nothing, my lord.
Lear: Nothing!
Cordelia: Nothing.
Lear: Nothing will come of nothing, speak again.

Today I shall read Lear. And walk by the river, and search for kingfishers.

My mind is scattering fragments: Lear is rubbing uneasily with Genesis 1.  The tension between Cordelia — who lives closest to truth in her silence — and the idea that the word (Word) is creative; that we are called to share in that creation.

I know that the answer (for lack of a better word) comes in the fact that Lear only perceives the truth when he is stripped of everything and enters the nothingness, only to find there the truth of love.

I know that the answer (for lack of a better word) is that silence and speech are both creative if they hold their root in God’s love.

But the thought is like mercury today.  It is so obvious and familiar that I walk it like bedrock and stomp in frustration at its unyielding. And yet is is so elusive that all I know gets lost there as I try to take up a share in creation.

Lear and Kingfishers.   Till silence yields.

play time

It’s definitely beginning.  My brain is coming out of slumber and seeking stimulus.  Bill Bryson has fallen into the ‘only late at night’ slot, and theology-lite books that looked promising last week are good for five minutes, but then I get bored.  Truth is, I’m bored with proper theology too right now.  Not with God.  Just with talk about God.

Enter random internet browsing…  and thus, TED talks.

This is today’s find:  Khan Academy.

The classroom teaching that I most enjoyed was Middle School Writing & Reading Workshops.  Nancie Atwell was the guru, and it is all very old and very ancient now.  Except that the good of it still seems not to have permeated British classrooms, and the model of education still stirs excitement for me.

Basically, the method says that to learn to read we must read, to learn to write we must write, and to become accomplished at anything at all, we must first make lots and lots of mistakes and not be afraid of them.

(call me on that one later — my educational philosophy says, ‘lots and lots of mistakes are good’.  my current life path says, ‘terrible mistake.  can’t possibly do that again.’)

I loved the workshop method because students were excited about what they were doing. I got to teach the moment instead of the curriculum (though that happened too).  And it was a whole lot easier to convince them of the merits of a semi-colon when the use of one suddenly added humour and pace to the narrative they were trying to create.  But I’ve always thought of the workshop model simply in terms of the English classroom.

Kahn Academy applies it right across the board — first with maths, and then with all sorts of other things. The ‘core teaching’ is done through video and progressive exercises that can be done at home; which means that the classroom teacher has infinite flexibility to respond to the needs of the individuals and to make time for creative exploration and application of ideas.   Better still:  it is all free, and you don’t have to be in 12 grade to learn Calculus.  Or to relearn in my case.  But I suspect I need to start with the 8th graders, and Algebra One.

(actually, for those of you who remember Hermione’s Heaven:  go to the exorcizes and follow the tree from the root.  Lots of gold stars to be had, while you remember the happy buzz of grade school.)