evensong for one

Christmas Altar 2

No one came to the Eucharist tonight, which meant that I had time to realise that it is Christmas. The head-cold is beginning to lift. Home communicants stand a chance of seeing me soon. My favourite Christmas CD is playing for the first time this season. Who knows, maybe I shall even find the energy to clean the house.

And, best of all, I was able to pray for the first time in days (apart from the ‘God help’ sort, and the ‘it’s your liturgy, you do it’ type) — just in time for the Magnificat antiphon I love best:

When peaceful silence lay over all,
and night was in the midst of her swift course,
from your royal throne, O God, down from heaven
leapt your almighty Word.

 

show time

Last night I saw The Producers.

Some of you will know that I am a theatre snob. My formative experiences of theatre were mostly on Broadway and I spent my teenage years at a school where the theatre budget ran to five digits which rather spoiled me for anything second rate.

There was nothing second rate last night. It was the most professional show I’d seen in years. And that was despite several technical glitches (first stop outside the West End?), three serious brushes with the giggles on Joe Pasquale’s (Bloom’s) part, and an increasingly troublesome sore throat on Cory English’s (Bialystock’s) part.

Or maybe it was because of these things. A less professional company would have come undone at the seams. Instead, they kept it alive by a thousand perfect flourishes and sheer skill.

Once upon a time, I could be totally lost in a show. Despite many hours spent backstage and a fair working knowledge of most aspects of production, the actor’s role was always beyond me and therefore retained its mystery. So it was with some sadness that I realised that had changed last night.

Early in act two, Bialystock has a solo scene in the jail. In a song that takes most of ten minutes, he summarizes the whole show and wears his heart on his sleeve. It was a stunning performance. It was one of those moments when I thought, ‘this is what the theatre is all about.’

But even as I held my breath in admiration, I was sad. Because it was not Bialystock I was admiring, but Cory English. I knew what was going into the performance and what it was taking out of him. I knew that for this moment, he would have to pay.

It reminded me of Christmas Liturgies — of wild moments on feast days when every ounce of the priest’s energy is need to hold focus, to carry the weight of the liturgy, to bear truth.

It is a different sort of performance. A different sort of truth.

But it leaves me marvelling at Cory English, all the same.

tree of life

I shamelessly stole the central image of my All Saints’ sermon from the rector’s letter from my former church’s magazine. ‘My training rector’ (he will always be that, I suppose) wrote movingly of an altarpiece of the tree of life, emerging from Adam and Eve, and growing up into the glory of Christ, with its branches filled with Saint after Saint.

The image was evocative because I’d spent the afternoon being distracted by fifty or more chaffinch who were rejoicing in the two new bird feeders in the tree. So, as soon as I began to read his letter, the image began to grow in my mind: branches furling out and up, forming a perfect illuminated page in jewel tones, with gold glinting and saints perched all around, talking, debating, wandering, praying. Imagine Hogwart’s paintings crossed with the Lindesfarne Gospels.

And then I went on line to find a picture of the altar my friend had seen. If I’d thought about it, I’d have realised I’d translated baroque altar into illuminated manuscript. But I didn’t think, so it came as a shock.

My training rector is a great fan of the baroque, and I could imagine him standing there in delight as theological complexities distilled in his mind. I’d have looked at it, thought ‘tacky’, and walked away.

So now, my mental image of the tree of life contains an ornately carved branch covered in shining gold for my training rector to perch on. But he and his branch are carefully hemmed in by clean black lines and carefully coloured knots and beasties– luminous, but not shiny, in their perfection.

Michael & all angels

angel

I had hoped to blog on Michaelmas today, but have run out of time. So I offer instead verses from a Michaelmas hymn I love. Yes, it is a Michaelmas hymn; it says so in the New English Hymnal. Though I seem to remember that my beloved training rector was not entirely convinced when I chose it for the first eucharist at which I presided after my priesting.

It came upon the midnight clear
that glorious song of old,
from angels bending near the earth
to touch their harps of gold:
‘Peace on the earth, good will to men,
From heavn’s all gracious King.’
The world in solemn stillness lay
to hear the angels sing.

Still through the cloven skies they come,
with peaceful wings unfurled;
and still their heavenly music floats
o’er all the weary world;
above its sad and lonely plains
they bend on hovering wing;
and ever o’er its Babel sounds
the blessed angels sing.