here comes the sun

4th of July BBQ

Those of you who have had the misfortune of seeing me lately will know that I have been having what my parents used to call a ‘grumpy day’. All week. I have been frustrated by what seems to be happening in the Anglican Communion; bewildered by the ease with which Gafcon seems to be claiming ‘plain readings’ of scripture, the 39 articles, and the 1662 prayer book as the clear standards of faith; and repeatedly tempted to despair over the future of the church.

But not today.

Today, the church was out in all its glorious eccentricity. Five year olds building sand castles, 89 year olds playing cricket, normally sensible adults wearing silly hats and flower lays and even a Hawaiian shirt. We played boules and Frisbee. We gathered in passing tourist from Australia and Germany, and a few locals (yes, I am counting the dogs) and ended the evening by passing our fire and marshmallows on to a family group from Dunoon who were just setting up camp.

At last a reminder of why we hold onto church (and not just God) despite all the nonsense.

pointed conversation

john the baptist I had an interesting lesson in communication today. I was meeting with a woman who has been deaf since childhood. She is very good at lip reading and also ‘speaks’ quite successfully. But still, I was worried. How does communication work when stripped of voice tone and mediated by hand gestures, notes and frantic typing on a laptop? (plenty of creative spelling on my part, I can tell you…)

Well, it was extraordinary. We had something specific we wanted to talk about, which meant that there was a focus that is sometimes lacking in pastoral visits. But the difficulties in communication meant that we were careful not to waste words. There was no dithering, no beating around the bush; just straightforward conversation that went as far as it could (for now) into the topic at hand.

It was liberating to be able to stay so focused. It seems that the challenge to communicate is such that there is neither time nor need to second guess. Life would feel very different if conversation were always so purposeful and direct, with a cup of tea afterwards once the business is done.

unintended consequences

Sometimes fiction speaks more effectively than anything that is objectively true. And never more so than in complex pastoral situations where no one (not even the poor pastor) can hold all the pieces.

So today, I offer a double book recommendation for the emotional unravelling of pastoral knots. But be warned: the books will take you through the pain rather than around it…

The first book is The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell. (I know some of you have read it.)

The Sparrow imagines a world that moves between our own time and the not distant future. The premise is that a talented (if gangly) young scientist notices wave patterns from space that seem to be music, and therefore learns of life on another planet. This young man has a friend who is a Jesuit priest, and the Jesuit convinces the order to fund an exploratory journey into the new world.

The band of characters drawn together is immensely appealing. The awkward young scientist; the fervent Jesuit who believes he is called by God to this work; an earth-mother type and her husband, both of whom happen to be polymaths; and a beautiful and enigmatic Sephardic Jew (cue budding romance with gangly youth…)

The story is complex. The narrative’s ‘present’ is our future, in the midst of a Jesuit Inquisition. The priest is being tried for crimes against the other creatures, and he seems unable to defend himself.

But through the trial, you are given flashbacks. You follow the priest through all his discoveries, his optimism, his joy. And you are never sure whether he is sinner or saint.

Head and heart pull in opposite directions, then suddenly at the end, it makes a terrible sort of sense. It’s a stunning book that pushes you to think carefully about the nature of God, vocation, and ethics.

The books feels complete in itself. You may think you don’t want to read the sequel. But do. The second book is actually better — if also more painful.

The second book, Children of God, covers exactly the same story — but this time, the narrative moves between the Jesuits and the perspective of a life form that is indigenous to the planet. You see it all again: how the humans came, what the humans did, how their actions were received. And it is devastating.

Yes, the humans made mistakes. We knew that in the first book. Some of their actions had consequences they had never imagined. We knew that too.

But what catches you off guard is the complex way in which it was the very best of the human’s actions — their good intentions, their striving to get it right — that had the most damaging effect.

And that is so much easier to face in a novel than in a congregation, in someone else’s life than in our own.

The books are well worth a read. But don’t expect to feel like doing much afterwards.

p.s. — and if anyone out there knows where my copies are…

little things

Encouraging news for Holy Trinity Dunoon tonight:

Someone* has purchased ten new cups and saucers for us since we keep running out after the service.

In the absence of reports of breakage or theft, I’m going to assume that’s a sign of growth.

*no prizes for guessing who. If you doubt the power of prayer, consider that this same person has, in the past fortnight, found in the local charity shops:

  • 10 cups, saucers & side plates
  • 2 iron candlesticks
  • 1 turned oak stand for a Pentecost fire bowl she happens to have, and
  • a siphon for emptying the font (sparing the rector much time with a ladle and spoon after the Eater baptism).

Oh, and when she wasn’t shopping, she found time to clean most of the visible surfaces in the church and to remove huge amounts of flaking paint. She even claims to enjoy dong it. Isn’t God good?